A WORK IN PROGRESS
I am trying to reconcile Quantum Pre-determination and Free Will…
So, do I HAVE Free Will? Or am I 100% pre-determined?
Choices are binary.
My awareness is not granular enough to comprehend the binary causes and effects that affect my ultimate behavior.
Perhaps it is not 100% one or the other…
Assume I have free will. But that will is weak. Not all powerful. I cannot do just ANYTHING I want to. I can only influence an outcome of course. I can be a catalyst and improve the probability of an outcome. i.e. I cannot move a mountain. I can, however, move a chair, but to move the chair I might need to get out of the chair and put my hands on it and grab the chair and push it or pick it up. If I am tired or lazy or the phone rings and I get delayed or distracted, I might NOT move the chair.
Also, I seek pleasure and comfort and avoid discomfort. My current comfort in the chair where it is as I sit right now as I write this might influence my decision making process to actually exercise my free will to act on actually getting up and moving it.
So if the phone rings just as I act to move the chair I might exclaim, “F*****G PHONE!” and grumble. I do that.
So, my behavior has been affected / influenced by an outside event , which itself may heave been pre-determined and or the act of someone else’s free will. And, it caused an emotion, short term.
Now, let’s say the phone call ends and immediately rings again, further confounding my chair moving plans, I might unleash a barrage of “SH**M***********S,” etc… I do that, too.
Imagine it happens three more time, and then while I’m still on the phone, the doorbell rings, the pot of soup I have on boils over and a pop-up window shows up on my screen screwing up the phone call.
This might change my mood. See where I’m going?
And if life has been this way for all my life I could be a grumpy nasty prick who bitches about everything.
But I’m not. I am though an easily influenced take it all personally moody person, and also an incredible optimist and cheerleader for the planet, and yet I get down in the dumps at times and or what some would say even depressed, whatever that is actually.
Now is that all somewhere in my DNA? One little gene with a DNA thingy flipped on or off somewhere? Hell if I know, but I’m starting to think this is all driving towards a Nature/Nurture balance, even a see sawing one and it might be the strength of my free will vs. my comfort zone tolerance to do unpleasant things even when I don’t want to, vs the desire to do pleasant things on the other hand, even ones that might have detrimental consequences down the road should I do those pleasure inducing things even though I know the consequences.
And all of this is influenced by outside factors in the equation, whatever that may be. And there may actually be an equation. Is this getting somewhere?
- Bill’s will.
- Physical capabilities, arm strength, etc…
- Outside factor, weight of chair
- to be continued
I have free will, but I’m not all powerful to do whatever the hell I want.
If something isn’t fun, I might put it off as long as possible, but sooner or later, my survival instinct will kick in and I’ll get off my ass and move the chair, if you will. or If I will, rather.
Heisenberg and Schroedinger and the two slit experiment are making a big play here I think. If I OBSERVE my own behavior, my behavior changes. I wanna just drop all this shit today and go fishing, which would be way pleasurable, except that it’s kinda chilly, but they’re slaughtering the bluefish in the bay. Tomorrow will be warmer though, and I have been putting off making some long overdue doctor appointments because I’m a woosie, but when I observe my behavior and think through the consequences of putting them off longer, I STILL don’t get on the phone myself and just friggin’ do it. BUT? I start thinking about WHY I don’t do it, I start writing this and I need to experiment to test my evolving theory / theories and I use the doctor appointments and some other unpleasant life tasks as test cases and son of a bitch if I don’t get my dander up and get on the stick and actually DO THEM!
Why? How did I do this? Why did these things finally happen?
Because I put myself under the microscope! I was being watched. And I wanted to make myself look good.
WHOA! WTF! Might this work to help me combat my procrastination in the future?
It might. It just might.
And now? I wrote this and I made those doctor appointments and did some other stuff on my TODO list I was putting off and sonofabitch if I’m not in a great mood now as opposed to be afraid of the friggin’ world and bummed out about it.
Pretty cool, huh?